♣ Blushing ♣

After so long, I blushed in front of them while presenting. To stand in front & talked to the rest who paid attention to what I'm talking, made my whole face flushing red.

How to be an influential person talking on the stage without the whole face flushing red?

Anyway... well done to my group!!!

♣ Weekend off ♣

I'm so glad there's a break from NSL this weekend. Hectic schedule for this week & I'm trying my best to do many things in a day. Finally I did full national training today, but my muscle is getting tighter which somehow affect my movements.

Training was so competitive nowdays which I don't know the reason behind it. I tried my best to be competitive by using my brain to think. I don't give a damn if you wanna challenge me, because I'll make sure it's a win-lose situation. Challenges make me grow to a even better one. Beware!!

Gonna buck up on my fitness which I haven't done it for so long. But I don't have the TIME!!!

♣ Can be lousier? ♣

I had reached to a point where I really couldn't differentiate the judgements. It's the lousiest judgements I'd ever encountered. Can the better ones come forward? Poor judgements & prejudiced. If you are the one being likened, well... congrats as you will be treated good. If is ..., work harder for yourself then.

Thought one should be fair... I don't think so.

I'd been stretching my hamstring & it's kind of sore from the stretchings... Arghhh...

♣ Weak ♣

I can't imagine that I'm not able to lift 70kg of barbell with weights for my box squats. I really could feel my glutes firing while lifting the weights. But it's ok... this will be my new start after the injury, to be able to carry on with Chin (the instructor)'s program without worrying about my injury.

Another exercise is the Glutes Ham Raise. Both of my hamstrings were really "activated" & doing their work, and my legs turned jelly jelly after doing it.

The bruise on my eye hasn't subsided yet, and thanks to the one who gave it to me. I got to live with "disfigured" face for 5 days at work. Time really passed so fast when there're tons of things to do at work, trainings. Though tiring, it's meaningful to me. I couldn't understand myself getting "devoted" into my work, but I will give my best once it's "dedicated" to me. How to say "NO"?

♣ 初恋是一张试纸 ♣

初恋是一张试纸

他与她青梅竹马

4岁，他开始喜欢她

9岁，在学校读书，她受了委屈会去找他，再没同学欺负她

18岁，他们相约考入同一所大学，每天一起上课，一起去学校食堂吃午饭。她有不开心的事了，依然会去找他，把他当做自己的大哥一样。

19岁，他对她说：做我的女朋友吧。她点点头答应了，感觉很幸福。

21岁，他们分手了。她流泪问他：你真爱上别的女孩子？

他点点头，有点无奈。　　　　

她又问：她漂亮吗？　　　　

他淡淡地答：你能肯定我们就是最合适的吗？我不想把这么美好的青春只给一个人。你难道不想再试试除我而外的其他男人吗？

毕业之后，他们一直没有任何联系。

25岁，她成了当红的女主播，他也在一家电视台做幕后翻译。这些年，他恋爱一场又一场，每次结束一段感情，都会想起她。

26岁，她结婚，只是觉得疲倦，好想找个肩膀靠一靠。

她主播的节目，他会小心避开，他怕看见电视里的她。她事业很好，却是个生活一团糟的女子，家务也不会做。家里尽管有了佣人，她的丈夫依然处处对她不满。

有一晚，他们吵了嘴，她开车出去在街上转了一晚，不知为什么，想起他，眼泪忽然落下来。　

29岁，她离婚。

31岁那年，他辗转找到她的电话号码，犹豫很久打了过去，这已是他们分手的第10个年头了。10年，可以改变一个人很多，对事情的看法，也完全不一样了。

31岁那年，她与他在酒店的大厅见面，往事历历在目，经过这些年的波折，都知道了生命中值得珍惜的情感并不多。两个人用了10年的青春，绕了很大一圈又回到了起点。

婚后很幸福。她因为经历过一次失败的婚姻，已懂得如何心疼一个男人；他对失而复得的这份爱，更加珍惜。如果不是这10年的经历，他们大概不会懂得这份婚姻对彼此的重要性。初恋是爱情的一张试纸，很多时候，我们都以为会有更好的人等在后面。殊不如，最好的人有时就在眼前，错过这一站，有时就错过了一生。

♣ Ferrari!!! ♣

Cool cars displaying in front of Bedok Sports Hall carpark & I didn't realise it was Ferrari. Hmm... I'm just not very into cars.