Finally I got to do ice bath recovery after today's training & it's so.... shiok!!! Was disappointed in myself because I couldn't train at >75% due to the strained quads muscles... Damn~~~ got to see physio on this saturday. To see what actually goes wrong...

I really needed to vent out the frustration within me...
I really wish that b***h will stay as a spinster for the rest of her entire life...I will wish this on my birthday or when I see a shooting star. I can't stand it!!! Stop acting in front of other people. The worst woman I've ever met.

♣ Ice bathssss ♣

Seriously I really needed ice bath after each training/game. Am I getting older that my muscles getting tighter each time I exercise?

Comments for the monday game.
1. Frustrations were there when we started & I supposed we were angry with one another's play, especially after I strained my left leg quad muscle when I did 1 sprint during warm up. I couldn't afford to aggrevate it any further, if not, I need to rest on the bench.

2. Frustrations again. My players were penalised when the contacts were mild & when we were contacted really hard, not contesting, they weren't penalised. My goodness... well done, I can say.

3. Frustrations again. The players played damn super rough. Did they realise they are late for the interceptions? And poor Fern got to protect the ball but they just go for it. Why? Because umpires don't blow. That's why players were so ill-disciplined.

Strained my muscle on monday & got to train on tuesday. Lisa told me to go easy for the drills but it didn't turn out that way. Got to run very carefully for prevention & I almost got calf muscle pulls towards the end of the training.

I need ice bath... ice bath...

♣ Do you remember... ♣

If you are from my ERA... you should know about this famous chocolate that primary school kids used to give out to their friends on their birthday... I had a crave for it & bought it to share with my teammates...

To all the rich kids, do not think that this is a lousy chocolate. Though it only cost $0.80 per packet, it's comparable to TOACKER.

♣ I need ICE BATH!!! ♣

My legs were aching from yesterday's fitness test & after today's training, my back is aching. Oh!!! I need ICE BATH!!!

Couldn't focus during the friendly game against 21s & I hated it... No fire today... Is just the sparks. It dies off one min & came back a few. Sigh~~~ Must be the confusion I had before the training started.

Time to buck up!!! I didn't do those stuffs which Lisa wanted us to do but I picked up a number of loose balls, that's just a luck.

I'll come back to my own psycho self again the next round.

Training at Jurong West Sports Complex isn't a great idea. Reached home @ 10.45pm which is kinda late. My sister is complaining & complaining...

♣ 1st fitness test ♣

Today I finally did the whole fitness test but this time round, it only comprises vertical jump, sprint & the yo yo test.

My vertical jump improved 1cm from the last year testing...
My sprinting... damn shiok... I had never run so fast before. So fast that even the instructors told me to run again as they couldn't believe that I could hit 1.99sec for 15m sprint. So I did it & I hit 1.98sec. Well done Yan!!! Deserves a clap...
Finally the yo yo test... I missed the previous testing & I only ran 720m for it. Sounds lousy & I really agreed but the intensity was so high. Well~~ it's ok. There're still room for improvements!!!

Sigh~~ Tomorrow's national training will be at Jurong West Sport Complex. So sad!!! It's so far away...

♣ Good training session ♣

Time passes so fast when the training is fun & learning new stuffs. Have been learning new stuffs from Lisa & I hope I can put into good use someday. Though it's not a day or two to master the skills, I will try to remember it.

Don't know why there's discomfort at the back of my ACL leg. Muscles too tight? Or am I losing my strength? Sigh~~~ I need to work hard again...

I must continue to work hard!!!

♣ Careless ♣

Was happily when I handed it up & thought "Phew....it was a relief once it's over..." But realized I missed out the part 2 of a question. Oh no!!! I was so disappointed in myself for not checking properly for my questions.

Just now before I had my dinner, I tried to hold a bowl of hot soup by 2 fingers (figured it out how to hold) & the finger got scalded after dipping into the soup.

I can't believe that I'm super careless today!!!

♣ Unlucky day ♣

I was so clumsy in the morning that I spilled my favourite boosting drink, Kopi O, on my desk. I didn't react quick enough to stop it from flowing down to my jeans. Arrggh!!! Took quite awhile to clean the mess I'd created & finally got the time to eat my "Cai Tou Kway" & drink the leftover 1/4 packet of coffee. I'll be more careful next time...

Not enough sleep... not enough time... Haven't really prepare for the next one & I'm gonna doomed!!!

♣ Playing against cats? ♣

Collected scratches & bruises from NSL games. Am I playing against wild cats or just some creatures with claws?



This is too much!!!

Hmm... I caught one wearing in attire talking to them in their playing attires. Something fishy... Is the one on their side? Does the one know the basic rules not to get involve? Really sucks...

♣ Blushing ♣

After so long, I blushed in front of them while presenting. To stand in front & talked to the rest who paid attention to what I'm talking, made my whole face flushing red.

How to be an influential person talking on the stage without the whole face flushing red?

Anyway... well done to my group!!!

♣ Weekend off ♣

I'm so glad there's a break from NSL this weekend. Hectic schedule for this week & I'm trying my best to do many things in a day. Finally I did full national training today, but my muscle is getting tighter which somehow affect my movements.

Training was so competitive nowdays which I don't know the reason behind it. I tried my best to be competitive by using my brain to think. I don't give a damn if you wanna challenge me, because I'll make sure it's a win-lose situation. Challenges make me grow to a even better one. Beware!!

Gonna buck up on my fitness which I haven't done it for so long. But I don't have the TIME!!!

♣ Can be lousier? ♣

I had reached to a point where I really couldn't differentiate the judgements. It's the lousiest judgements I'd ever encountered. Can the better ones come forward? Poor judgements & prejudiced. If you are the one being likened, well... congrats as you will be treated good. If is ..., work harder for yourself then.

Thought one should be fair... I don't think so.

I'd been stretching my hamstring & it's kind of sore from the stretchings... Arghhh...

♣ Weak ♣

I can't imagine that I'm not able to lift 70kg of barbell with weights for my box squats. I really could feel my glutes firing while lifting the weights. But it's ok... this will be my new start after the injury, to be able to carry on with Chin (the instructor)'s program without worrying about my injury.

Another exercise is the Glutes Ham Raise. Both of my hamstrings were really "activated" & doing their work, and my legs turned jelly jelly after doing it.

The bruise on my eye hasn't subsided yet, and thanks to the one who gave it to me. I got to live with "disfigured" face for 5 days at work. Time really passed so fast when there're tons of things to do at work, trainings. Though tiring, it's meaningful to me. I couldn't understand myself getting "devoted" into my work, but I will give my best once it's "dedicated" to me. How to say "NO"?

♣ 初恋是一张试纸 ♣

初恋是一张试纸

他与她青梅竹马

4岁，他开始喜欢她

9岁，在学校读书，她受了委屈会去找他，再没同学欺负她

18岁，他们相约考入同一所大学，每天一起上课，一起去学校食堂吃午饭。她有不开心的事了，依然会去找他，把他当做自己的大哥一样。

19岁，他对她说：做我的女朋友吧。她点点头答应了，感觉很幸福。

21岁，他们分手了。她流泪问他：你真爱上别的女孩子？

他点点头，有点无奈。　　　　

她又问：她漂亮吗？　　　　

他淡淡地答：你能肯定我们就是最合适的吗？我不想把这么美好的青春只给一个人。你难道不想再试试除我而外的其他男人吗？

毕业之后，他们一直没有任何联系。

25岁，她成了当红的女主播，他也在一家电视台做幕后翻译。这些年，他恋爱一场又一场，每次结束一段感情，都会想起她。

26岁，她结婚，只是觉得疲倦，好想找个肩膀靠一靠。

她主播的节目，他会小心避开，他怕看见电视里的她。她事业很好，却是个生活一团糟的女子，家务也不会做。家里尽管有了佣人，她的丈夫依然处处对她不满。

有一晚，他们吵了嘴，她开车出去在街上转了一晚，不知为什么，想起他，眼泪忽然落下来。　

29岁，她离婚。

31岁那年，他辗转找到她的电话号码，犹豫很久打了过去，这已是他们分手的第10个年头了。10年，可以改变一个人很多，对事情的看法，也完全不一样了。

31岁那年，她与他在酒店的大厅见面，往事历历在目，经过这些年的波折，都知道了生命中值得珍惜的情感并不多。两个人用了10年的青春，绕了很大一圈又回到了起点。

婚后很幸福。她因为经历过一次失败的婚姻，已懂得如何心疼一个男人；他对失而复得的这份爱，更加珍惜。如果不是这10年的经历，他们大概不会懂得这份婚姻对彼此的重要性。初恋是爱情的一张试纸，很多时候，我们都以为会有更好的人等在后面。殊不如，最好的人有时就在眼前，错过这一站，有时就错过了一生。

♣ Ferrari!!! ♣

Cool cars displaying in front of Bedok Sports Hall carpark & I didn't realise it was Ferrari. Hmm... I'm just not very into cars.

♣ 遇上倒霉鬼 ♣

不知道最近是不是碰到了倒霉鬼，总是处处碰钉子。好运几时来呢？

总是做些让人看不顺眼的事情。好的总是第一个发表意见，事情不顺利的时候，就只会耍太极拳。真是气死我了！

好想把信交上去。。。

♣ NSL - Vipers against Stingrays ♣

We always started well but fumble after that. What's wrong with it? Sigh~~~ the passes were killing one another, unnecessary things that they did. No options, clashing, running into one anothers' paths, timing off, etc.

I couldn't tell the 3 sec held ball rule. It's so inconsistent in it. What's contact & what's obstruction?

Heard rumors about an UNDERAGED girl telling people that she got a girlfriend whom she's with for a year. I think she must be on drugs & hallucinating about this or rather say she's gaga over her idol? Sometimes I really wonder what's in their mind? Spreading rumors & talking rubbish to other people. What are they trying to prove?

I really couldn't stand these 2 days of NSL. So much nonsense from different people which were so frustrating.

♣ NSL "Wipers" vs "Allowanas" ♣

Didn't play today as I'm still not cleared for my strength test which I kinda predicted. Was told that in order to drop to <10%, face="Trebuchet MS">
But the good news was, my hamstring was cleared!!! Right hamstring was slightly stronger than the left.

Game started smoothly & shooters were converting the shots & I was "convinced" that we might be able to win the game. Outcome wasn't what I expected.

Fatigue comes into play very soon which leads to poor performance, poor vision, poor options. Everyone do gets fatigue at a point, is just a matter of how one controls it.

Team game needs the unit to work together & perform.

I can only give advice, not solution.

Words came out from my mouth were bad omen...

"The girl's taping was quite similiar to ACL taping. Somemore put on knee brace. Does she have ACL?" I was referring to "Allowanas" GA.

And during the game, she got herself injured after trying to save the ball. She couldn't move at all, couldn't stand up properly, couldn't walk by herself. Hmm... familiar scene... I shall asked around about her condition & see if it's really ... Anyway she should take a break from netball...

Don't tell me I can foresee thing?

♣ 蜻蜓的故事 ♣

在一个非常宁静而美丽的小城，有一对非常恩爱的恋人，他们每天都去海边看日出，晚上去海边送夕阳，每个见过他们的人都向他们投来羡慕的目光。

可是有一天，在一场车祸中，女孩不幸受了重伤，她静静地躺在医院的病床上，几天几夜都没有醒过来。白天，男孩就守在床前不停地呼唤毫无知觉的恋人；晚上，他就跑到小城的教堂里向上帝祷告，他已经哭干了眼泪。

一个月过去了，女孩仍然昏睡着，而男孩早已憔悴不堪了，但他仍苦苦地支撑着。终于有一天，上帝被这个痴情的男孩感动了。于是他决定给这个执着的男孩一个例外。上帝问他：“你愿意用自己的生命作为交换吗？”男孩毫不犹豫地回答：“我愿意！”上帝说：“那好吧，我可以让你的恋人很快醒过来，但你要答应化作三年的蜻蜓，你愿意吗？”男孩听了，还是坚定地回答道：“我愿意！”

天亮了，男孩已经变成了一只漂亮的蜻蜓，他告别了上帝便匆匆地飞到了医院。女孩真的醒了，而且她还在跟身旁的一位医生交谈着什么，可惜他听不到。

几天后，女孩便康复出院了，但是她并不快乐。她四处打听着男孩的下落，但没有人知道男孩究竟去了哪里。女孩整天不停地寻找着，然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩却无时无刻不围绕在她身边，只是他不会呼喊，不会拥抱，他只能默默地承受着她的视而不见。夏天过去了，秋天的凉风吹落了树叶，蜻蜓不得不离开这里。于是他最后一次飞落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀抚摸她的脸，用细小的嘴来亲吻她的额头，然而他弱小的身体还是不足以被她发现。

转眼间，春天来了，蜻蜓迫不及待地飞回来寻找自己的恋人。然而，她那熟悉的身影旁站着一个高大而英俊的男人，那一刹那，蜻蜓几乎快从半空中坠落下来。人们讲起车祸后女孩病得多么的严重，描述着那名男医生有多么的善良、可爱，还描述着他们的爱情有多么的理所当然，当然也描述了女孩已经快乐如从前。

蜻蜓伤心极了，在接下来的几天中，他常常会看到那个男人带着自己的恋人在海边看日出，晚上又在海边看日落，而他自己除了偶尔能停落在她的肩上以外，什么也做不了。
这一年的夏天特别长，蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飞着，他已经没有勇气接近自己昔日的恋人。她和那男人之间的喃喃细语，他和她快乐的笑声，都令他窒息。

第三年的夏天，蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的恋人了。她的肩被男医生轻拥着，脸被男医生轻轻地吻着，根本没有时间去留意一只伤心的蜻蜓，更没有心情去怀念过去。

上帝约定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最后一天，蜻蜓昔日的恋人跟那个男医生举行了婚礼。

蜻蜓悄悄地飞进教堂，落在上帝的肩膀上，他听到下面的恋人对上帝发誓说：我愿意！他看着那个男医生把戒指戴到昔日恋人的手上，然后看着他们甜蜜地亲吻着。蜻蜓流下了伤心的泪水。

上帝叹息着：“你后悔了吗？”蜻蜓擦干了眼泪：“没有！”上帝又带着一丝愉悦说：“那么，明天你就可以变回你自己了。”蜻蜓摇了摇头：“就让我做一辈子蜻蜓吧……”

有些缘分是注定要失去的，有些缘分是永远不会有好结果的。爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好去爱他。你的肩上有蜻蜓吗？

♣ Beyond control ♣

After since I started the course, there were too much thoughts in my mind. It's like searching a file/folder in computer but I realised it didn't work for me. I needed a lot of spare time to do my workouts & personal stuff.

But I guessed I got to deal it in my own ways, to sort things out. I'm playing against the time... from 7.20am to 6.30pm, mondays to fridays. Rushing & rushing, and everytime I asked myself, "Is it worth to do?"

"Things aren't beyond my control..." I almost burst into tears yesterday when I really couldn't take it, & thanks to the little sad love story read by the DJ, I teared.

Losing my faith & hope everytime things turned sour.

你相信报应吗？为人处事不好，就别想得到好的待略!